Panic At Burro Days
2/24/22
The sooner you learn this truth, the sooner you will reach your goals:
CHANGE DOES NOT FEEL EASY!
Growth can actually feel TERRIFYING.
Let me tell you a little story:
Once upon a time, in June 2021, I quit my job as a school psychologist. It was not my calling, and I wanted to live an aligned, passionate, purposeful life, so staying with something that wasn’t true for me was no longer a choice I was willing to make. It felt exciting, right, and scary.
In July of 2021, my family and I were in Fairplay, Colorado for vacation when the town happened to be having a festival called Burro Days. (Google it, attend it, so fun.)
So I was walking around the town fair with my husband and 2 small children, just enjoying the day and enjoying our vacation, when all of the sudden, I started looking at older adults around me and my heart started racing, my hands started sweating, my thoughts started whirling, and I had an overwhelming sense of impending doom.
This is what I thought as I was looking at the older adults: “Everyone is wearing clothes, they have shoes on, look at her purse. They all had to BUY those things. I just QUIT my job. Do I really think I can make a living as a life coach? What the hell did I do? I need money for the REST of my life! I need money to give my KIDS a good life. I don’t want to end up with NO MONEY on the streets! AHHHHH! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!!”
Seriously, our thoughts can be such downers when we believe them.
As my kids ran towards the bouncy houses, I covertly wiped the tears welling in my eyes and took deep breaths to avoid dissolving into a puddle right there at the fair. I whispered to my husband that I was terrified. He held my hand tightly and said it would be okay and that I had done the right thing. That helped on some level, BUT:
What I’ve learned→ when you look to others to create a feeling of safety for yourself, any resulting feeling of safety is purely superficial, it doesn’t make you feel safe down to your core, you don’t fully BELIEVE it. I had to be the one who created that sense of safety for myself.
We get so in our heads about it.
I KNEW with every fiber of my being that my old career path was NOT my true calling, my soul’s purpose. I had known that for 10 years and FINALLY had done something about it.
AND, it STILL wasn’t easy.
And even after I made the decision, while I KNEW it was right for me, I still had ups and downs of “I got this. I’ll figure it out” to “HOLY SHIT I am over my head...What have I done?!!!”
The point I want you to truly let sink in here:
You can KNOW something is a HELL YES in your body, and STILL have fear.
The work is leaning INTO the fear.
The work is FEELING the fear, choosing not to BELIEVE it as truth, choosing to see it as SEPARATE from your wisest self, choosing not to let the fear LEAD your life.
The work is following your “hell yes” EVEN when it means having to take action THROUGH fear.
It’s. Not. Fucking. Easy.
If you are telling yourself that it must feel comfortable in order to be SAFE, you are missing out on the POSSIBILITY and RICHNESS available to you in your life.
If you are telling yourself that you will feel SAFE when you are “100% ready” to make that change you want, you are missing out on the GROWTH and EXPANSION available to you in your life.
You CAN learn how to create the feeling of safety in your body so that you can move THROUGH the discomfort and fear and INTO what you REALLY want for yourself: living as the truest, most powerful version of yourself in an aligned and authentic life that sets your freaking soul on fire.
I CHOSE to keep moving forward through the discomfort. I’m still writing my story. And now I don’t have those panic moments about my decision to change careers. I’ve built that sense of safety within myself. I’ve worked on my mindset, AND I’ve worked to embody that mindset.
I THANK MYSELF daily for having the COURAGE to trust myself and take that “leap” toward the life I really wanted.
And fun little fact:
When you are moving toward alignment and truth, the universe responds in kind: it WILL work out.
Because I said YES to myself, even through the fear, I GAINED in spades. I love being a Life Coach. I love working with my clients. I love seeing the amazing growth my clients create each week. I work less days and less hours per day than I did before, AND I make money doing it :) I will in fact be able to buy clothes and shoes until I no longer need clothes and shoes anymore lol. I just had to learn how to create the feeling of safety within myself in order to KEEP MOVING toward my truth.
I share this with you so you can use my Panic at Burro Days story as a support when you are growing and come upon your own FEAR.
We are all humans with human brains and nervous systems. Fear is a normal response to doing something new and big.
I know what FEAR feels like. I’ve almost crumpled under it, AND I’ve risen up and walked right through it into what my heart truly desires.
Here’s to taking action THROUGH fear because you TRUST yourself and you are fully committed to making the most of this one shot you have at life.
If I can do it, you 100% can too!
Fear is PART of the journey.
I’ll help you learn to embrace it so you can accomplish your WILDEST dreams.
I am here to hold space for you as you navigate your own journey and to help you learn how to create safety within yourself so you can THRIVE in ALL the ways you want.
all the love,
Renee
